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Disclaimer: The WWF owns all the characters used in this story. The song
"Everywhere" is owned by the talented Michelle Branch (Her CD
"The Spirit Room" is out now and I highly recommend it) This is my
very first Song Fic and my second fan fiction. I know this really sucks , but
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/Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere/
Stephanie McMahon Helmsley lied wide-awake in her queen-sized bed
looking up at the
ceiling. She was really tired after the long day she had but she knew
she couldn't go to
sleep because she was afraid she'd have that dream again. She had
been having that
dream every night for the past few months. The dream where she in bed
with a man who
was not her husband. This man would kiss her and tell her how much he
loved her. She
would in return tell him how long she waited for him to say those
three magical words
and that she loved him too then he would promise to never leave her.
That was where the
dream always ended. She would wake with a mournful ache in her heart
alone, without
that man. This dream was responsible for many sleepless nights and
the deep sadness she
woke up with every single morning. What made this dream even worst
was that the man
who she saw in her dream was Chris Jericho.
/Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look you're never there
And every time I sleep you're always there/
"Wow Princess, you look awful. What's the matter, pulled an all
nighter with one of your
clients?" Chris Jericho said cockily and laughing at his own joke.
"Do you ever shut up Jericho?" Stephanie asked glaring icily at
Chris. She couldn't
understand why she felt what she felt for Chris. Was it because of
his handsome face? Or
was it because of his kindness towards everyone but her? Maybe it was
because of his
carefree attitude in life? Stephanie had no clue except for the fact
that there was just
something about him that made her heart jump, palms sweaty, and a
feeling of longing
inside her.
"Well It depends, do you ever stop being such a ho?" Chris shot back.
"I hate you!" Stephanie said for like the hundredth time storming off
but not before
giving him one last glare. As Stephanie walked away she instantly
felt hot tears begin to
fall for one simple fact: she didn't hate him. She loved him and
wanted to spend the rest
of her life with him, but she knew it wasn't going to happen. He
didn't love her back, in
fact he hated her. That was something she had to accept, but just
couldn't.
/'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone/
"I love you Stephanie"
"I felt like I've been waiting to hear you say that for all my life"
"I promise I will never ever leave you"
Stephanie suddenly woke up to find an empty bed and that familiar
ache in heart there.
She started to cry silently. The dream seemed so real this time, but
yet again it always
did. It seem to hurt a million times more every time she woke up
alone to find that the
object of her affection wasn't with her, that he was probably with
some other woman
right now, and he doesn't even know she loved him.
/I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me/
Stephanie walked down wearing a pair of old jeans and a black Nike T-
shirt to the bar in
the hotel. She knew she looked far from the usual billion-dollar
princess Stephanie, for
one thing her hair was straight and in a ponytail with loose strands
of hair covering her
bare face with no makeup. Stephanie ordered a beer and took a small
sip from it. The
bitter taste went easily down her throat. Even though she was in a
lot of pain emotionally
she just took a few more small gulps of the beer because she knew
very well if she
decided to drown her woes in a couple of beers she'd pay for it in
the morning. Stephanie
slowly made her way back to her room knowing she'd have to go
through
this again
tomorrow night.
/'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh/
Almost every night either on camera or off Chris Jericho would find
some way to make
fun of Stephanie McMahon Helmsley.
"What made me think tonight would be different" Stephanie
mumbled
quietly to herself
as she wrote in her journal. She checked the clock on her desk, which
read 1:46 am. All
night Stephanie was keeping her self busy by going on the Internet,
watching old movies,
reading a bunch of magazines, writing out her thoughts, or just
anything that kept her
from experiencing the same pain she felt after that blissful dream.
Stephanie put her pen
down for a second and walked across the room to her suitcase and
pulled out an old
picture of when Chris first joined the WWF. Her father threw a small
welcoming party.
That was when she first met the handsome Canadian. He was very nice
and funny as well
as hot. Stephanie wanted to date him then, but the chances of having
such a wonderful
guy falling for plain old Steph wasn't likely. At least they became
good friends, but now
that seemed like millions of years ago. Everything changed now, she
wasn't exactly plain
or the girl next door anymore and their friendship was probably
beyond repair. In the
picture Chris was standing next to Stephanie both smiling happily.
After all they been
through overtime Stephanie looked at that picture she felt a small
glimmer of hope that
maybe one day they could be together. Stephanie let out a bitter
laugh. For if some
chance in hell Chris would feel any kind of love towards me it
wouldn't work out, there
would just be too many obstacles to overcome Stephanie thought.
Stephanie sighed and
went to bed ready to have that amazing feeling she'd have when she
went to sleep
replaced by the same old ache in her heart.
/And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so/
"Are you sure you're okay?" Shane asked Stephanie worriedly. He
noticed Stephanie
wasn't acting or looking her usual self for the past few weeks and it
just seemed to get
worst. She looked tired all the time like she didn't sleep and her
there was something
pretty strange about her eyes. Not only were they red and puffy from
lack of sleep, but
they seemed like they were missing something special and instead were
filled with
sadness and longing.
"I'm fine Shane!" Stephanie snapped at her brother. She didn't mean
to and she felt
horrible about it too, but she just couldn't take another person
asking her is she was okay
because she wasn't. She'd never be okay with the man she loved more
than anything
hating her guts.
"I'm sorry Shane. Its just I haven't exactly been having the best of
nights now" apologized
Stephanie.
"Its okay, I know just the thing that can cheer you up. I just set up
a handicap match with
Test and Booker T against Jericho" Shane said happily.
"Thanks Shane" Stephanie said trying really hard to force a small
smile up.
Stephanie walked down to the ring with Test and Booker T trying her
best to seem happy
about the match.
The lights went out in the arena as the countdown started. The
fireworks went off and out
walked Chris Jericho. Before Stephanie knew it the referee rang the
bell and the match
started. Jericho got the advantage in the beginning against Test, but
it was a short lived
with Booker T coming to the rescue of his partner. Stephanie clapped
and shouted
encouragement to Test and Booker T. Doing that was quickly getting
harder as Chris was
thrown around the ring getting punched and kicked at. Stephanie was
too busy wrapped
up in her thoughts to notice Test on the top rope about to dive
straight for her.
"Hey Steph!"
Stephanie's thoughts were interrupted with that insult. She was about
to say something
back when she noticed Test about to dive straight into her. Stephanie
backed away
quickly just in time to miss being smashed by Test. At that time
Stephanie realized Chris
was the one that yelled the insult to her. That insult just saved her
from going to the
hospital. Did Chris Jericho just save me? Stephanie thought.
'/Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone/
Stephanie walked quickly backstage to Shane's office.
"O my God Steph are you okay?" Shane asked.
"Yeah, but did you just see what happened?" Stephanie asked.
"Yes of course, thank goodness you back away in time"
"No, I was day dreaming and I heard Chris call me so I looked to
him,
that's when I saw
Test about to get me. Chris saved me" Stephanie explained feeling
thrilled.
"I didn't hear him call you" Shane asked confused.
"He did Shane!" Stephanie said loudly.
"Look Stephanie while I was putting you luggage away your journal
fell out. I know your
in love with Chris" Shane said.
"And from what he just did tonight I know he loves me too"
Stephanie
glowed.
"I didn't hear him say anything Steph. All I saw was you
backing away
before Test dived
into you. Maybe you imagined him telling calling you" Shane said.
"I didn't imagine it Shane!" Stephanie said sternly. She
turned her
heel quickly and left
Shane's office. On the way back to the hotel Stephanie felt the
happiness that she just had
slowly fade. Was Shane right? Stephanie wondered as Shane's
doubts
started to get to
her.
"I knew I heard him call me though," Stephanie said to
herself. Maybe
he was calling her
to make fun of her or to give her a warning that he was going to
chase her and lock in the
Walls of Jericho on her. Stephanie started to cry. Chris didn't
love
her. If he did he would
of probably told her, after all Chris Jericho wasn't the kind of
person to keep his feeling
bottled up inside and not express it in words. Those thoughts ran all
through Stephanie's
mind.
"He doesn't love me" Stephanie whispered quietly to
herself as tears
slide down her face.
/ 'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath it's you I breathe
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone /
Stephanie got into bed looking at the picture of her and Chris at
better times. She slowly
ripped the picture apart. She had to accept the fact she loved him
and he never would.
Stephanie wrapped the blanket on her bed around herself and cried
herself to sleep. She
knew once again that she would have that dream again then wake up
with the same
heartache. She would just try to bear the pain as long as she could
and then maybe one
day she'd tell him how she feels because Chris Jericho was her
everything
/You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me? /
"I love so much Stephanie"
"I love you too. I've always wanted to hear you say those
words"
"I've wanted to hear you say those words too"
"Promise me you'll never leave me"
"I will never leave you. You're my soul mate and I want to
spend the
rest of my life with
you"
Chris Jericho woke up feeling a sharp pain hit his heart. He'd
been
having that dream for
the past few months. Each time he woke up it hurt more and more. He
knew she hated
him, but that didn't stop him from falling deeply in love with
Stephanie. He knew she
was probably wondering why in the hell he saved her tonight. The
answer was because he
was head over heels for her. That was also the answer to why he
always calls her those
mean names. If he called her all those names she'd then want
some
revenge so in a way
she'd remain close by him. Every night he regretted not asking
her
out when he had a
chance. Now she was married and she hated him with all her heart.
Which was too bad
since she would never know that he loved her with all his heart.
Chris closed his eyes and
tried to go back to sleep even if it meant waking to the same pain in
his heart. It was a
small price to pay for that a few minutes of seemingly real bliss.
The End
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